"Why not go out on a limb? Isn't that where the fruit is?" -- Frank Scully
I took a break from the studio for a little mother and daugther time. Sweet Pea and I went to see The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel. A sweet film set in a gorgeous locale. Much of the film revolves around the idea of embracing change, accepting it as a bonus rather than a negative. How do you embrace change? Do you accept it or let it run right over you?
I used to be fearless. I would buy a plane ticket to Europe that morning and be gone that evening, not to return for 7 months. I jumped head first into business, walking the streets of Manhattan selling my designs door-to-door. I cold called galleries. I was fierce, fearless and loved the rush that came from the unknown. I embraced change.
Where did that woman go?!
I'm older these days, but not necessarily wiser. Yes, caution is a good thing, but it can strangle one. I am set to go on vacation in a bit and I'm having the hardest time planning my itinerary. I mean seriously, does a vacation really need this much planning? I'm driving so I may have the freedom to wander at will, but I can't go without having rooms secured. My younger self slept in empty train cars if need be.
A few years back a friend sold her house and put everything she owned into storage. She was rolling the dice to join the Peace Corps. At 50+ years old she took off on the adventure of a life time. These days she lives in Thailand teaching elementary school. I admire her courage. She kept thinking she was crazy, but once she was accepted and stationed, everything clicked into place for her. In a sense, she's home as her heart is where it needs to be.
I'm not saying I'm unhappy, but yes, I'm a bit restless. As my daughter matures and settles into her own life, I finally have time to focus on myself. Let me tell you, it's a very scary prospect indeed. Do I return to remnants of my younger self or is there a new role for me to play?
The pic is of my friend Kate and me in our last year of high school. I look at thw face of my younger self and see the mischief. Maybe a vacation will help me dig through the layers and find my courage to once again jump off the high dive and embrace change.